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[Dezzymandius]

...all the better to drink from.

The Journal of

Dezzymandius

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[Dezzymandius]

BloodLust
It's amazing how much it can control us, this thirst we have. If we try to ignore it, it gets pissed off and takes matters into it's own hands. We may control it, but sometimes i think that it is truely stronger than we'll ever be.

BloodLust is a devious and clever monster, born as soon as one becomes a Vampyre. We can tame it, but we will never truly be stronger than it.

I made a Mistake today.

Yesterday i got so wrapped up in my work that i forgot about time, and my bodily requirements. It was only when finally i remembered some other work i needed to get done did i realize how hungry i was.

I went to the door to go feed, however when i opened it, i was met with the horrific discomfort of a sunny day. I had left it too long. I knew the consequences, i shut the door and decided to return to my work until sunset.

Although i could not ignore the groaning of the monster inside. The monster was not pleased. It grew hour by hour, minute by minute, pestering me. I constantly checked the sun calender to see what time the sun would be setting in SilentBreeze. Minutes until the due time, and the monster was ferocious, the moment the sun faded away, i leapt out of the door and ran to the first place i could think of.

The Hospital.
Where lots of blood waited for me.

Somehow i still managed to control the BloodLust, which was ordering me to go to the city and slaughter humans. I reached the hospital, and fed. Only to be discovered by Frost. I could tell she was disappointed in me, i felt foolish, embarrassed, a rare emotion for me to feel.

How could i have been such a fool?
If i had lost control.
I would not have stopped.
BloodLust would seize the opportunity and wreck as much havoc as possible, killing within the radius of it's senses.

Foolish.
I cannot defy BloodLust.
I can merely tame it.
I must NEVER forget that.

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